I am tired.

Yay, an entry about tiredness. Boy you must be missin me rants, is you?

I'm not tired bodily. Just mind. Paklong was looking into my plate of nasik tomato and jokingly comparing it to my sister's. He said that while kaklong put the piece of chicken on one side, potato on the other and the rice is at one side, mine is a jumble of potato upon chicken upon rice.

"That's because psychologically she's messed up." kaklong said. "She's trying to open a kindergarten while managing her unstable freelance job."

Actually I'm not tired of that. I get tired thinking about that. I think the same goes for Nad, Mun and Tim too. We were thinking about our work, about THAT work, about money, juggling stuff. On my part, juggling stuff here means rearranging and scheduling priority, thinking about the money I make, I have to make, before going straight into this business.

I never have touched more than RM1.5k a month since the first time I work. Never even once. I think, usually at this time, people of my year would have make at least 2.2k per month. I do think I have an unusual tolerance on being paid little, and now with this project in hand, it means that I pushed a lot of work away, and will eat dirt this couple of months ahead. Ahahahah.

But anyway, reading Nad's blog, I think I need to make my gratitude list too. Tomorrow, or whenever.

But right now I am grateful that I have real friends, that I have a family that really cares despite of us bullying each other every day, that we found a perfect home for our perfect lil business. I am grateful that the new INUYASHA & FULLMETAL ALCHEMIST is on TV too. It makes me feel like my years in IIUM.

I should be sleeping since I got kursus tomorrow, but instead I am spending time listening to people-in-love gushes about their loved ones. I used to be annoyed when that happens, but dunno why, I don't mind it so much now. I even feel happy for them.

I have matured! (*grinning penuh makna*)